So beautifully written, thank you for your words! Very, very poignant and relatable. This is me too - "I am bouncing off the walls and lying flat on my back. I am heavy with questions but free of desperation to find the answers. I’ve got a gratitude list and a hot tea kettle. I’ve been watching too many TikTok videos and eating too many prepackaged snacks. I’ve sat for hours adding items to my online cart only to abandon it without purchasing a thing."
"I have been moving in circles. The radius expands but the direction never changes. I have become my own reverberation, a faded echo, returned over and over again."
May we notice with each return that we grow in power and wisdom.
I often think, utter, or write the words ‘Here I am’ in my prayers and gratitudes but today you have helped me recognize their actual significance. Perhaps I was at least already somewhat aware hence their frequent use in my meditations but it definitely feels like a lightbulb moment. That is some exquisite writing… ultimately exquisite being. Much love and respect xo
Thank you, Kai. That phrase is a powerful mantra for me when the stickiness ensues…a reminder that in this moment I can choose to be fully alive. It’s the hardest thing to do, isn’t it? Much love.
I've had this same feeling for many years. And have jumped ship a couple of times too, but only to come back and find the ship is now different and my place on it is not the same. I hope you get to your 'Portofino', if the moment is right.
all of us who are stuck in a limbo share this strange, abstract feeling. I think it’s a turning point - an opportunity to meet the parts of ourselves that are finally surfacing. it can feel uncomfortable, yes, but it’s also a chance to take stock of who we are and where we’re going.
i love that you can still see something positive through the curtains, and it reminds me that to see the rainbow, we have to withstand the storm first. and honestly, the waiting isn’t so bad if we’re able to write our way through it. much love :)
So beautifully written, thank you for your words! Very, very poignant and relatable. This is me too - "I am bouncing off the walls and lying flat on my back. I am heavy with questions but free of desperation to find the answers. I’ve got a gratitude list and a hot tea kettle. I’ve been watching too many TikTok videos and eating too many prepackaged snacks. I’ve sat for hours adding items to my online cart only to abandon it without purchasing a thing."
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Thank you, Bridget! I’m always so relieved to find I’m not the only one :) I appreciate you 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
"I have been moving in circles. The radius expands but the direction never changes. I have become my own reverberation, a faded echo, returned over and over again."
May we notice with each return that we grow in power and wisdom.
Dear Kristen,
I often think, utter, or write the words ‘Here I am’ in my prayers and gratitudes but today you have helped me recognize their actual significance. Perhaps I was at least already somewhat aware hence their frequent use in my meditations but it definitely feels like a lightbulb moment. That is some exquisite writing… ultimately exquisite being. Much love and respect xo
Thank you, Kai. That phrase is a powerful mantra for me when the stickiness ensues…a reminder that in this moment I can choose to be fully alive. It’s the hardest thing to do, isn’t it? Much love.
You’re spot on and I love it. I am finally getting much better at this… at the opposite of instant gratification.
beautiful <3
Thank you 😊
So beautifully written Kristen. The paradoxes never seem to end, do they? I can relate. Thank you for this.
Thank you, Mark. They never end…
I've had this same feeling for many years. And have jumped ship a couple of times too, but only to come back and find the ship is now different and my place on it is not the same. I hope you get to your 'Portofino', if the moment is right.
all of us who are stuck in a limbo share this strange, abstract feeling. I think it’s a turning point - an opportunity to meet the parts of ourselves that are finally surfacing. it can feel uncomfortable, yes, but it’s also a chance to take stock of who we are and where we’re going.
i love that you can still see something positive through the curtains, and it reminds me that to see the rainbow, we have to withstand the storm first. and honestly, the waiting isn’t so bad if we’re able to write our way through it. much love :)